So I’ve been noticing some things. Evidence of recurring patterns that I have recognized as I continue to move forward in this real time series of “Lenten Letters”.
On this edition of “Becoming Today” we’ll examine how clarifying these connections is aiding my goal, while causing even more things to come into the light.
I’ve had a bit of a breakthrough, one of those ah-hah moments. When things suddenly click and begin to make sense.
Earlier this week I wrote to you about how I needed to stop “Withholding” things from myself. My immediate sense was that I was not extending self compassion, however, after another discussion, someone pointed out to me, there was more I was denying myself.
In “Stopping Self Sabotage” I asked the Lord to help me see how I could overcome that destructive behavior. In my conversation with Him, I wrote;
“I am recognizing that these harmful patterns I find myself in are a result of allowing my self esteem to take some hits, combining with being my own worst critic.
I want to overcome these negative behaviors, but through the fog, my vision is clouded and I am not at this moment seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
I have successfully dealt with some related concerns including impatience, procrastination and hesitations caused by allowing emotions to discourage me.
However I am questioning whether the root of the interconnectedness lies deeper? Perhaps in some residual anger?
I am uncertain how to proceed. What is the next step I need to take?”
I asked and of course the answer was delivered to me.
It came from the words of Pure Glory who shared their own personal testimony:
“One of the things that works for self-sabotage is forgiving yourself, completely. Then you can tell it to leave you in the name of Jesus. Too often we kick ourselves way too long. Let it go and let the love of God fill you. I have struggled with this issue for a long time and recently got free by doing this.”
“Forgiving yourself completely”- yes! This is something I have struggled with throughout my life. In fact it is what led me to recognizing the need to undertake this exercise. In bringing these issues into the Light, only then can we see clearly the path forward, the next step in our own individual paths of “Becoming”.
There is the connection with my recent hesitations, failing to continue to forgive myself.
So for further advice I need only to reread the advice I shared about self forgiveness in the revelation of the “Eight Points of Light”.
Forgiveness is something that for many people is easier said than done. For me it was especially hard to learn how to forgive myself.
To fully forgive involves allowing ourselves to let go, To actively and consciously release the need to hold on to past baggage, old quarrels, unfinished business or the need to get even.
You can not create a state of “Becoming”, if you aren’t willing to let the former or current realities go.This is a vital part of “Becoming”. Not only forgiving others for perceived wrongs, and asking for forgiveness from those you may have hurt but also forgiving yourself.
It is then, and only then, that you can let go of anger, guilt, shame, or any other feeling limiting your growth. Let it go. Face forward, look upward and then you can get busy moving on.
To let go of past hurts, you need to make the conscious decision to take control of the situation. However, this can take time and practice. Be kind to yourself as you practice self care and love.
Then you can say good-bye to anger, guilt, shame, or any other feeling limiting your growth. Let it go. Face forward, look upward and you get busy moving on.
In doing so it becomes much easier to practice gratitude.
See the good in everything and everyone. Cherish beauty, kindness, love, and joy. I believe everyday should be Thanksgiving. I am constantly giving gratitude for all things including the lessons we sometimes don’t want or think we need.
Being grateful puts us in a better state. One of bliss, joy and abundance. When you decide to adopt and commit to an attitude of gratitude, God listens and rewards you. Then you are free to be, in an atmosphere of abundance rather than lack and fear. Being grateful is a conscious and easily sustainable habit. Make it one of yours.
Advice that I too, again need to take to heart.
Hope you are having a blessed day and I look forward to our next chat
I also appreciate Pure Glory’s suggestion of Psalm 139 as its closing verses ( 23-24) are really striking a responsive chord in me today. As it is written in the New Living Translation:
“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.”
Focusing within, seeking out our own anxieties, doubts, false beliefs, stress and worries is a requirement in this exercise. I can say that these past 22 days of letters have been both healing and quite revealing. Plus we still have another 16 to go.
What may come in those is still a part of the process.
I pray you are finding this season progressing well, and notice that when we talk next we will have entered another one. Spring will begin to blossom here in the northern hemisphere and I’m certain it will cause each of us to bloom as well.
Enjoy your weekend and please, come Monday, decide to join us again for the next edition of “Becoming Today”.