Indecision

Decisions are something that apparently more than a few people have trouble with. As I often have shared, I belong to the schools of thought that teach,….

What happens when you make a decision?

Either it works. Or it doesn’t

It always made perfect sense to me, however as we’ll explore on this edition of “Becoming Today”, that is not the case at this moment. 

As I continue on my latest exercise in today’s “Lenten Letter”,  I am addressing my need to ‘give up’ indecision as suddenly I find myself unable to make a key decision.

Dear GiGi,

Okay I guess I’m seeing things a little more from your viewpoint. We have had this conversation in reverse many times over the years, so I am struggling with why I am becoming so indecisive.

You know I have some issues that need to be addressed within a very specific time period and yet when asked all I can keep saying is “I know. I know”.  However I really don’t know what to do yet.

As I’ve publicly shared before you and I have had our own significant struggles on this topic. 

I’ve written about you, whom I love dearly and how “as your big sister I can be a bit ( well maybe a lot more than a bit ) overprotective of; is constantly at odds with her ability to make a decision. Large or small”. 

Meaningful or not, I have seen you get caught in “analysis paralysis” going down every rabbit hole you can, stopping having a cup of coffee with Bugs Bunny and then returning exhausted  crying, “I can’t get started!”

Now I’ve gone daffy following the same path.

I know I have always stood firm in our discussions about this and have regretted that too often the conversations have gone something like this…..

“Dammit GiGi, just make up your mind already!”

“ I can’t…..”

“Just do it. Just do something, please!”

“It’s too hard….”

“Quit whining, pull up your big girl panties and just take care of it!”

I am sorry for all the times those words have left you sobbing and now through my own tear filled eyes I understand my assertions are not only not working, it isn’t helping either of us, or the situation in any way. So I have to make a decision to seek a new approach.

So again in the battlefield of my mind I know the steps to overcoming this challenge. I just can’t rouse my spirit to get my heart connected and put them into action.

Yes I realize that I need to make a decision. 

I am gathering relevant information through both research and self assessment.

I have identified several possible paths of action, or alternatives. 

I am attempting to prioritize the alternatives in accordance with my beliefs and values. 

Weighing the evidence, I should be able to put the plan into action. However I can’t. I circle back to analysis  paralysis and time keeps on slipping into the future. 

I understand the potential consequences. I realize delaying the decision increases certain risks  yet I just can not come to a place of even putting my shoes on, much less taking that next step.

I don’t know what to do. I know doing nothing is not an option. I understand no one can make the decision for me. It is my responsibility and I am holding myself accountable for my inaction.

That’s why I need to release this blockage. To let go and “give up” this attitude of indecision.

I need help. Share with me, what has helped you leap over the hurdles in the past. Please…

Love,

Rochelle

As I suggested in today’s headline I have a decision to make. A meaningful one. I’m not just trying to add to the estimated 235,000 decisions researchers claim the average person makes everyday.

This choice literally involves the direction of my life. 

I see there are those who are at peace and those who live in fear, doubt, anxiety and paranoia. I’m hoping most of you- if not all of you, are desirous of the first choice. 

I want to be, but currently am sliding towards the latter.

You can read in the Book of James Chapter five verse 16, we are instructed not to conceal our sins and doing so can quite literally make us sick. “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed….”. 

The line then continues that when we accept our responsibilities and make the choice to live a right and proper life that we will see, “The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective”.

I am praying much about this today. Seeking the Lord’s counsel and awaiting his response.

I’ll share when it comes, in the meantime I hope you are having a blessed and peaceful day and invite you to join us again tomorrow for our next edition of “Becoming Today”.